I 'too' have a dream

Growing up watching Powerpuff girls, Spiderman and Superman already brings in a feeling that you are going to save the world one day.

I always had a dream that I want to bring a change in the world. After Class 1Oth, it was time for me to decide which professional door would I like to explore. I thought a lot.
One day I was reading Martin Luther King's speech 'I have a dream' these are the few lines which changed my life:

“Our lives begin to end the day we become silent about things that matter.”

That's when I decided I want to be a journalist and a voice to thousands of those who deserve justice and a better life. There started my journey to be that change I wanted to see in the society.

After two years in a Journalism college, you realize it's easy to scream you want to bring a change in the society but you dare to stand alone and raise a voice in this ugly world. You will be thrown out of the system and never be able to stand again on your feet. Its easy to watch films like Rang De Basanti and get inspired. After my internships I started understanding that the outside world is all about money,power and a web of corrupted people.

Look around the world be it Hitler or today's Bashar-Al-Assad they have killed thousands of people but who dared to stand up and stop it or a raised a voice?

People like Julian Assange, Bradley Manning or Edward Snowden who exposed the US wiki-leaks and their networks are either jailed or living in an asylum. So, who has the guts to make a difference?

But my dreams have still not changed but have evolved and expanded my thinking capacity.

I still have a dream

A DREAM TO CHANGE THE WORLD
A DREAM TO BE A VOICE TO THE UNHEARD
A DREAM TO BREAK ALL THE BONDAGE AND REALIZE
                                                     I AM THE CHANGE I WANT TO SEE IN THE WORLD

 This is what I want to do be it 10 years from now or my lifetime. And Journalism is just the path I have chosen to reach the ultimate goal.

Ek break toh banta hai!

Recently I was travelling in a bus and I overheard two aunties talking. Trust me, it was really interesting. One aunty was cribbing about our Government and getting angry on our very own Sheila Dikshit for constructing 'well-structured' BRTs. She was frustrated as we were stuck in traffic for an hour. She was right but how we all love to crib about everything around us. But what do you think if tomorrow any of those Ministers come and meet her, will she have the same reaction? NO. What if a poor person by chance hits you and apologizes in a crowded bus? We'll abuse him and even beat him up.

This is who we are. Our behavior depends on situations and people around us. Gossiping and cribbing are a part of our lives. But have you ever tried to look inside you? You'll understand your condition is worse than others and you'll regret all the times you dared to accuse another person.

For sometime I had left writing. The long break I had was for me to rethink about my life. I looked inside me to find that truth was far from me. A break to think where my life was going? What was I doing with my life? You can also call me lost for a while. Lost to get back to the right track.
So, these days were a turning point in my life. Time to rethink and realize whatever I had learnt in the long run was just a vague idea of the real truth.

Don't fall madly in love with anything in life which could make you blind to the truth, it might be your religion, your belief, a person or your own perception.

When I actually realize where I'm standing now it feels as if I'm sent back to kindergarten just to get a fresh start. But it makes me a little upset also as I was thinking Oh,I have crossed grade 5 and I have finished half of the race. I'm back to kindergarten, but there is a little difference now. I know that my parents wont come to drop me and I have to travel the rest of the path alone.

So,its time to take a break from your busy schedules and take a look what exactly is going on in your life.

PS: I'm happy that I wrote a post after such a long time. :)

money,money everywhere!

I was talking to a 7-year old kid yesterday and asking her about her best friends, her favorite teacher and all about her new toys. Then I asked her a usual question, 'What do you want to become after you grow up?' She quickly replied to my answer that she wants to become rich, buy a bungalow and a car. I was shocked to hear that answer as I thought she would possibly reply that she wants to become a doctor, engineer or may be an actress. I was thinking when I was her age all I could think about was about playing ghar-ghar with my friends. Then I realized how our homes have become a corporate company where all that people do is to earn money and shower upon their darling kids. Then in this whole process the only thing the kids would learn is to how important money is in their lives. If we have money we have friends, expensive cars, following the latest trends what else do we need? Then they start doing the same thing as they grow up and this becomes a part of their family ancestry. In this modern age, who cares to pass on the morals?In this fast moving generation if you dare to work without pay people would start saying, when you know you have talent then why do it for free? Is my talent kept for sale in the market or what?

 My parents still keep repeating their stories of struggle as to how they walked miles and miles to go to school  and also supported their families by doing all the household work. I just get irritated and walk off but there is a huge difference between 'us' & 'them'. They never worked to enjoy all the luxuries of life but what about 'us'? We start weaving dreams of living in luxurious bungalows and driving a BMW even before we get our first pay in hand. Aren't we becoming greedy?

They work to provide us for all our needs but we work to get all the latest designer clothes and have food in the best restaurants in town. 

So are we just fulfilling our needs or following our greed?

Back on track

Playing monopoly,eating junk food, sleeping and listening to music is all what I'm doing for the past one week. It was an interesting week. But I've missed my piano lessons, left reading books and done nothing useful. Something has changed in this whole process? What's it? Is it me? Or my life?

I just realized there is a whole lot of difference in how you want your life to be and how it actually turns out to be. I always thought I'm a very ambitious person and won't get deviated from my goals for anything. But there comes a phase in life when life just gets derailed from the right track when all you can think of is just sleeping,eating and having fun.

I always thought that don't care attitude is so good because I never had it. But now I realize I have become so numb to everything. I don't care what I'm doing. I don't care where my life is going or why am I wasting time on such things. I just feel sick when I think about my this attitude. It seems I'm blindfolded and I'm just walking and it would ultimately end up in some pit. And this don't care attitude just sucks.

As people always tell me to keep moving on in life. I feel there is no use of keep moving on in life without a hint where you are gonna end up. So as I've realized that everything's messed up. It's time to mend things or at least try doing it. I don't want my life to be pitied by someone but become an example as to how to reach the ultimate dream.

WE NEED RESPECT!

India- a land with the oldest and richest culture, a land with natural beauty, a land where respect and love overflows from our hearts, a land where many religions and traditions are followed, still we all live together in harmony. But what has happened in these past few years? Where has all our respect and love for others got lost? Increasing cases of rape, senior citizens killed for money, women hanging themselves due to domestic violence and many more.

India- a land where every religion talks about respecting women or if you are an atheist then at least due to the sake of humanity let women breathe free. I sometimes feel suffocated in this society where a girl from her childhood is taught to talk less, interacting with boys becomes the talk of the town and as a girl grows up she realizes that she is the one who has to do all the household work while her brother would be playing football all day, then she grows a bit more older she is sent away to a strange house and told to live her rest of the life there, loving, caring and doing all the jhaadu-pocha for them. I never understand why girls have to go through such a pathetic life? Are girls only made to do all the household work and still get abused by the society? While boys on the other hand, spend all their childhood in playing and then are taught that women will remain under you and serve you all her life. I'm not saying that everyone goes through the same or has the same thought. But I feel this is the common thought that prevails in our society. Women play so many important roles like a mother, a wife, a sister, a a daughter-in-law, a daughter. Doesn't she deserve all the respect in the world?

I think all the crimes against women can be abolished only by start working from the root-level. Everyone need to change their thought about women- she's not just a maid but can become whatever she wants to become. Parents should always treat their kids equally and educate both girl and boy.Women should never lose confidence and never allow anyone to look down on her. A mother should always teach her son's to respect women and treat her equal. School can also play a very important role by increasing the self-confidence of the girl child and encourage both girl and boy equally to do better in every field.
A society can change only if it's individuals start working together to build a better country. I learnt this in school- "One alone can't build a bridge but unity among workers can make the bridge stronger."

So, for a change in the society- parents, teachers, politicians, leaders, siblings,police everyone needs to change their attitude towards women.  Respect them and keep them safe. It won't harm you but make you a better person!

G.O.A.L?

Phew! I felt as if it's been a very long time that I wrote my last blog then I checked the date and found that it's just been a week. A week! It seems like a month...The last one week was a roller coaster ride for me. One moment I felt this is what I always wanted to do and the next moment I felt like Oops! I'm  stuck! This is not what I wanted for my life. Why is it always so difficult to take decisions in life?

I have heard many successful people say in their interviews that all along their way they knew that this is what they always wanted to do and then they achieved the best after many years of hard work. I have no idea what I want to do. How can people be so sure of their dreams? Why don't I know what my dream is?
Isn't there anyone who never knew what they wanted to do and then in the search of finding their goal, one fine morning they found it.

I'm so clueless about my life. I always thought life is an adventurous journey and you'll keep on getting trains to reach your final destination and life itself would keep on giving new journeys. But may be I'm too lazy to even do something.

How do people realize their goal? What if the goal you ran after all your lives was never your actual goal and you end up in a cobweb?

I'm still in the search of my goals and I believe I'll find it someday. But I'll never be able to say " I always knew what I wanted to achieve in life".

Years of innocence or curse?

Childhood- the most amazing time of life. The only time in life when we don't have to worry about studies or people. When life is all about playing with friends and getting pampered by parents.

Those innocent yet naughty years of my life are long gone. But it still brings a smile on my face when I flip the pages of my childhood albums. It also makes me remember those friends who have just vanished into the world and never met me again.
When I see the hypocrisy and the pride of the grown-ups, I sometimes feel it would have been better if I was a kid and would have never understood all these things. But after all that has happened in the past week it just scares me to become a kid again.

For me, babies or kids are the cutest thing on Earth and how can someone even think of raping them?  I feel sad that people could even think badly about innocent kids. I was shocked by the news of a 5-year old girl getting raped. I feel sad that people could even think badly about innocent kids. I was shocked by the news of a 5-year old girl getting raped. Seriously, people are becoming animals day by day (Oops! I don't wanna insult animals by saying this, animals are much better). I'm sick and tired of hearing from people they should be given this punishment, they should be hanged to death immediately. I understand this is their way of showing anger or disappointment. But is there any other way to stopping all these cruel and inhuman activities in our society?

We have tried "dharnas" or fasts after the 16th December rape case which seemed unending but it didn't change the scenario much, other than creating commuting problems for ourselves. We give speeches, we write(like the one I'm writing now), we have long debates about it and we also get to hear some precious words from our Ministers like we are very sorry, girls should dress properly etc...etc...(it seems to be a very long list)...But is there an actual solution for it? Can this society change or will it get worse?

I used to think change starts from one person and it can spread like wildfire. But now I'm doubtful about it. I leave this question to you because I myself don't have an answer. Do comment.