Back on track

Playing monopoly,eating junk food, sleeping and listening to music is all what I'm doing for the past one week. It was an interesting week. But I've missed my piano lessons, left reading books and done nothing useful. Something has changed in this whole process? What's it? Is it me? Or my life?

I just realized there is a whole lot of difference in how you want your life to be and how it actually turns out to be. I always thought I'm a very ambitious person and won't get deviated from my goals for anything. But there comes a phase in life when life just gets derailed from the right track when all you can think of is just sleeping,eating and having fun.

I always thought that don't care attitude is so good because I never had it. But now I realize I have become so numb to everything. I don't care what I'm doing. I don't care where my life is going or why am I wasting time on such things. I just feel sick when I think about my this attitude. It seems I'm blindfolded and I'm just walking and it would ultimately end up in some pit. And this don't care attitude just sucks.

As people always tell me to keep moving on in life. I feel there is no use of keep moving on in life without a hint where you are gonna end up. So as I've realized that everything's messed up. It's time to mend things or at least try doing it. I don't want my life to be pitied by someone but become an example as to how to reach the ultimate dream.