Log kya kahenge??

I simply don't know what I'm about to write but I just felt like filling up this space. I just feel sometimes we just need to let it go. Talk whatever I want, go & have cheese pizzas(even though I might gain 5 more kilos because of  it)...Take a walk alone or start jumping, screaming and hitting myself..you must be thinking I've gone mad...but I'm literally fed up of doing everything so systematically. Getting up in the morning, brushing, taking a bath, going to college or hanging out with friends..having all the 3 meals on time...this is sooo disgusting. I can't even write about my daily routine..What if I don't comb my hair, what if I start screaming in the middle of the road or pull my hair...Literally speaking I scream a lot..once we went to India gate with friends I pulled a prank I told one of my friend to stand on the other side of any group or a family...I started screaming oyeee...tu kha ja rhi h??jaldi aa...and the groups who were having a peaceful time with their families started staring at us and giving an irritated looks..Mission accomplished!! If I go and tell my grandmother that I shouted on the road or got angry on someone. She would start scolding me and tell me baby you should be careful..People would say I haven't taught you how to behave in the society ?? I think that's called a generation gap..We people always want to be free, open and live a king size life..without any regrets and enjoying every moment. Our previous generation believes in maintaining a status in the society, living a peaceful life with a big family and dying at 80 years of age. We want our cries of rebellion to be heard but they would tolerate every crap all their lives and never ever talk about it to anyone. We believe in living the moment and half of their lives gets over in future planning. As for me, my mother has taught me the value of relationship and the best part for a relation is standing together and fighting a problem. Even though there's a big difference between us and them but we respect and love them for making us who we are today- strong,  independent and caring.